Yep, Still Alive (07.06.06)
Things were looking pretty bleak in that last post. I guess not much has changed, that is, except for my perspective. Every now and again a great Psalm will enter its way into my reading material. Here's the one that came yesterday during my study time:
Psalm 42
For the director of music. A maskil of the Sons of Korah.
1 As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
4 These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go with the multitude, leading the procession to the house of God, with shouts of joy and thanksgiving among the festive throng.
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and
6 my God. My [c] soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you from the land of the Jordan, the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.
8 By day the LORD directs his love, at night his song is with me— a prayer to the God of my life.
9 I say to God my Rock, "Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?"
10 My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
11 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
I taught on this Wednesday night. God keeps leading me to teach the kids about trusting Him through hard times and suffering. I guess I'm starting to figure out why, even if I don't see the whole picture yet.
posted by randy @11:38pm
Still Alive, I Think (07.04.06)
The past week has been pure hell. I can't even really blog about what's going on, because then I'd be a big loser. But life is not particularly fun at the moment. I wish I had some answers about all this, but I don't. Fortunately, God gives us family to rely on during these uncertain times, and mine is the best. Stacey and Molly both continue to amaze me. Thank you Lord!
I guess we all go through trials. Maybe I should get some sleep... I think that would help. Probably more than redesigning my stupid website... D'oh!